I loved you
But now I hate you…
I can not deny there are still feelings there…
Feelings I loathe and despise…

So is there a reason?
Maybe I wasn’t trying hard enough
Or maybe you’re just a jerk
Possibly, I was trying not to believe and hurt my own heart.
Regardless… I hate you,
Today I pretended I killed you
Because If I can’t have you, then no one else can
But I’m not that bold…

Who am I to you anyway?
The girl you talk to in math class?
The girl you fight with in the hallway?
The girl who keeps annoying you?
The girl you used to get to the girl you wanted…
WHO WASN’T ME!
AND I’M PISSED!
WHAT’S WRONG WITH ME? HUH HAIBOKUSHA-KUN????
AM I TOO CRAZY?
AM I TOO EMOTIONAL????
AM I TOO BOTHERSOME???????
Or am I too plain Jane for you?

I’d admit, I’m not the prettiest penny…
I assumed looks wouldn’t matter to you…
But I’m not ugly, I’m just plain…

I dreamt of us being together…
LITERALLY!
BUT MY DREAM WAS SHATTERED INTO LITTLE GLASS PIECES WHEN I SAW YOU PASSING NOTES TO MY BEST FRIEND!
I DON’T NEED TO ASK FREAKING QUESTIONS!
I… I already know…
After all the pining and lusting and loving
What do I have left?


What is this feeling?